Bright color leaves begin to float about in the wind. The air is beginning to take on a different crisp smell and feel to my cheeks. I love to grasp onto a a mug of hot apple cider and just feel my hands warm up.
It's October.
It's October.
The signal that the end of the year is near and anticipation for the holidays here.
Although October is one of my favorite months, my heart aches with very mixed emotions about this month.
For this reason, I have decided that this month's challenge is to:
October.
It's a reminder.
A reminder that I should be holding my brand new baby in my arms.
I knew that the heartache and empty feeling would be strong this month as it reminds me of my miscarriage.
Boy was I right.
My heart does ache.
More than I could have imagined.
More than I could have imagined.
Floodgates open as tears flow in the most random times. I could be driving in the car and a particular song sends me into the ugly cry. It's almost as the more I try to set it aside the more it comes to the surface.
It's been a tough 6 months.
I long to be STILL and just listen to my inner voice.
I long to be STILL and just observe.
I am allowing myself the time to be STILL...to hopefully continue to heal.
OCTOBER CHALLENGE:
I want you to start this challenge by thinking of a number 1 to 12. Okay got it? Now think of a number between 1 and 59. Got it?
That is your time this week. For example, the number that came to my mind was 3 and then the next number was 2 so my time is 3:02pm. Now set your alarm on your phone for that time of the day- obviously adjust it to AM or PM during a time you are going to be awake.
This is a random time of the day where no matter what you are in the middle of you will take a two minute time out and just be STILL.
If you are in the middle of something with others- just simply excuse yourself and find a place you can close your eyes and observe the sounds, smells, and sense of touch you feel in those two minutes. That is all. No judgment...just observations.
At first, those two minutes may seem like an eternity, but in time it will become easier. I promise.
You ready to join me??
Besitos,
xo
OCTOBER CHALLENGE:
I want you to start this challenge by thinking of a number 1 to 12. Okay got it? Now think of a number between 1 and 59. Got it?
That is your time this week. For example, the number that came to my mind was 3 and then the next number was 2 so my time is 3:02pm. Now set your alarm on your phone for that time of the day- obviously adjust it to AM or PM during a time you are going to be awake.
This is a random time of the day where no matter what you are in the middle of you will take a two minute time out and just be STILL.
If you are in the middle of something with others- just simply excuse yourself and find a place you can close your eyes and observe the sounds, smells, and sense of touch you feel in those two minutes. That is all. No judgment...just observations.
At first, those two minutes may seem like an eternity, but in time it will become easier. I promise.
You ready to join me??
Besitos,
xo
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